A journal of healing

     Every month for the rest of my life I will have to have labs done. This is in order to see if there are any changes in my values and if there is a decline in my kidney function. It is like spinning a roulette wheel. The anticipation before going for the labs is tough. But waiting for the results is worse. Two labs ago, I was headed for dialysis in a rapid way.

But I took control of what I could and that was what I eat. I was so gung ho at first but the daily necessity of it does make it weary. I am keeping a food journal using an app called https://www.myfitnesspal.com. I track everything that goes into my mouth. I plan every meal and bargain with myself. If I eat this, I don’t eat that. I find it very helpful to know exactly what the calories are and other components of food that I need to keep track of like potassium and protein.

It also tracks my exercise. And when I say exercise, I mean what I do. I don’t go to a gym. I track what I do around the house and garden. The data base is pretty extensive but you can also find other calculators to measure how much output you do daily. I have been cleaning out and packing up old clothes and items around the house. I have been working on the garden and reseeding the lawn. You would be surprised to find that you can burn over 300 calories an hour just doing work around the house.

For the last years, I have been extremely sedentary due to my job. The only movement I had for the course of the day was to go from one meeting to another. I sat all day. When I retired in January, I was extremely short of breath and tired just standing. Sometimes, going shopping required that I use a motorized cart to get through a large store.

Almost every day I plan an activity that will use mobility. Yesterday for example, we went to BJ’s. It is a huge store and I usually have to ride a cart. Yesterday, I walked it and very rapidly. I haven’t been able to do that for at least two years.

This is a long haul process. I have to admit, it’s horribly hard. My husband and I love to go out to eat. We spend our weekends trying new places or revisiting old. Yesterday we went to one favorite places that has a bakery in the place. Their sandwiches are on fresh baked bread. They also usually have fabulous salads, but when their homegrown stuff is in, which it is not yet. So I splurged and had a sandwich. It was fabulous. But then the temptation was on to have more “forbidden” items, which was hard to pass by. But I did. When I got home, I actually calculated the sandwich into my daily calories, and was not that far over that I could also have an enjoyable dinner. I have to learn to cut myself some slack.

This experience makes me very aware of how easy it is to overeat. People who can eat whatever they want are truly blessed. I watched what other people were eating. They have no idea how lucky they are when they are chowing down without worry. This new concern for me has nothing to do with losing weight to look acceptable. It is all about putting the right things in my body to help my kidneys. My bigger concerns are keeping my sugar low so that doesn’t impact the kidney and low protein and potassium which is hard for the kidney. That means no meats or sweets. The American diet is so based on meat that it’s hard to go out and find places that offer plant based meals. Even salad offerings have chicken or cold cuts (terrible for you).

The information out there on the Internet is so convoluted that people with kidney disease have a real struggle. I am finding that recipes that are supposed to be kidney friendly are anything but. I hope in time to be able to become very knowledgeable so that I can help others who find themselves in the same position.

My labs from May 8th showed some real improvement in my numbers. It was good news after such a plethora of bad in the past few months. It gives me hope that I can hold off dialysis.

 

 

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